from time to time .......

I have had my website for a long time and really got it solely becausee i loved the name .......i found the name at a pig farm in clark falls  conneticut.....strange place  to find a  name for your website ..... but i found a pack of discarded playing cards found in an old leather  jacket  discarded by a  son who left
his mum in the  seventies...and never  returned ....and the rest is history.....however it never really has been about money money of life ......truth and  generaly bullshit that surroiunds humanity on every level .......
However from time to time i like to  embark upon subjects ....that tend to annoy ......prod and generally piss people off ....its never a personal vendetta on any level ......i just see things how i see them and jeust tell it like it ...spellling mistakes and  all ......organic you might say ......i hate the  grammar police who sometimes now and then.....say its riddled with spelling mistakes .....well then do not  fucking read it ......
well as i have said i ponder on many different subjects revolving around life and all its stupidity .....regarding human beings ......on how  the indoctrination and bullshit they embark upon ......such things like ....funerals ....weddings ....holidays ....inanimate objects controlling them .........self hatred .......and let me say that this is one of the things i will never  understand about a human being is  self hatred .......i find this  completely and absolutely insane ....that you can hate yourself .......you are you ......how can you hate you .....are you fucking nuts ......i find it  easier  to dislike and opponent ......i basically think...its a complete waste of thought ....time ...and  energy .......but thats  just me .......
we are given one sot at life and you have to do the best with it .....however  from time to time as i say .....i do like to  tell thr  truth in an  unorthodox fashion .......and  some people get hacked off  ...and call me judgemental ....troublemaker .....this taht and the other.......its amazing how people hate the  truth ......its inanimate ......much like alchohol ...drugs ....cars ...and  guns .......it only comes  to life  when you let it  control you ........it simply boils down to self control really ...control life or.....it controls you .....and when something controls you like above mentioned or people .......the resul is never  good ......ever ....this is why i am single for that reason......i will not and  never  have  wanted  to control anyone ....at anytime  ....and i find  jealousy  insanity .......this is  also derived  for low self esteem and hatred ...like  anger  inward  depression......and once  again its inanimate it your mindset that is igniting it and making the  inertia .....if its left alone it will do nothing ........like a gun ....car ....drugs ....so on and so  forth ......
you are yuor own conduit to a peaceful existence .....aqnd whatever you manifest will come to you .....be  careful what you wish for ,,,,really !!!!!!!.....
i have heard peple say ...if it was not  for bad luck i would have no luck at all ......really ..!!!!!!!would it  not be  better  to say ......i woke up today ...i ate some breakfast and i walked ......unlike some  children dying from cancer or  hunger .....
Be grateful for every single day you have ....becasue just the fact that you woke up ......toook a  dump .....brushed your teeth .....ate some food  ....and  walked ....or got in your  car .......is nothing short of a fantastic day ......
just think of the  children in cancer  wards who are knwoing they are  going to  die.......or a child  with no food ......that's a bad  day ........